Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Wait and see

This week I was inspired by an episode of Scrubs. Silly? Yes. But let me share what I learned...

I am not a "wait and see" person. Pretty much the moment I feel like I know what I need to do I jump right in and get 'er done. I don't beat around the bush over-thinking things, I don't sit around waiting for life to happen to me.

Well, when it comes to recent events in my life it has been incredibly hard for me to not just jump right in and act on what I feel like I need to do. I feel like I know what Heavenly Father has in store for me, I feel like I know what path I need to take, and I feel like I know what steps I need to take to get there. So, for the boy, we'll call him Greasemonkey, to be so unsure of what to do is frustrating to me. I realize I can't force him to see things the way I do, I know that I have to wait for him to draw his own conclusions from the incredible experience we had.

My issue with the whole experience is that I am a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, especially in the temple. There is no such thing as chance or coincidence. We pray, we receive answers, we act, and we are blessed. I feel like I know why this particular experience happened, but he's still not sure. He's so busy analyzing it looking for a deeper meaning that he's missing what's right there on the surface: we both went in praying about what to do with our respective love interests, we were asked to do sealings, kneeling across the altar from each other felt right, and we both got the feeling that the Lord was trying to tell us something. Granted, I was already several steps ahead of him by being interested in him.

He says he just doesn't feel that "spark" with me. Now, I have a theory on this matter... we're both very physically-oriented people. When it comes to the 5 love languages we are both very much "physical touch" people. We have yet to explore that aspect of our "relationship". We've never held hands, we've hugged maybe twice in the 4 months we've known each other, and we've definitely never kissed. We cuddle occasionally, but it's just not the same. My theory is that the "spark" is going to continue to be missing until we finally venture into the great unknown of kissing, etc. (And believe me, I want to!). I think Greasemonkey is always going to view me as just a friend until he makes an attempt to make me more than that.

So, herein lies the problem: he's a "wait and see" person. He feels like we should just continue on the way we've been going and see what develops. I want to act. And here, we've arrived at an impasse.

So I guess for the time being I'll wait and see, and maybe someday (hopefully sooner rather than later) he'll decide to cross over to my side of things and take some action. (And in the process give me some action ;) ).

4 comments:

WonderKitty said...

So what was it about Scrubs that inspired you? It is a great show, and is usually full of inspiration. Good luck with your Greasemonkey!

Annabelle said...

Wonderkitty-

It was the episode of scrubs where the interns are first left in charge of the hospital for the night. They have a patient getting ready to die and JD wants to wait and see what happens while Turk wants to operate.

Meg said...

This totally makes me laugh, because I was in this same situation (a little different, no temple involved, just a nudge from his deceased mother). I knew my answer but I was a wait and see person and Trent wanted to get the move on. I made him wait ten dates before I would kiss him, it went extremely quick after that. Maybe you need to learn a little more about patience Selkie Sue. I'm very excited for you!!!! I didn't feel a spark with Trent for months, but I needed to learn how to not be infatuated and how to be truly in love. You can give your boy my number if you want, I'll let him know how the wait and see turns out. Just teasing. Congrats on the temple!! I'm proud of you! Welcome to the "club"!!!!!

Felicity said...

Wowza...good luck! Isn't life "fun"?!